Lyrics
I was a knuckle head that would waste time and earn money
On the road to nowhere but
Things changed when I’ve turned twenty
Everytime I’ve held you my inner darkness will turn sunny
A baby boy into this world that will learn from me
So I had to change a few things and make better decisions
Cause I can’t do right for my son if I’m dead or in prison
I put the dumb shit aside but drama stuck with me
Some things went wrong with your mama so I got full custody
I promise to raise you right and prepare you for when you’re grown
But I was only twenty one raising a toddler on my own
But I did what I’ve had to do and rose to the occasion for you
To be placed in my custody was truly amazing
I’m usualy chasin' the paper, gone most of the day
I hope and I pray you’ll understand and know that I stay
I work so I can provide for you, it sucks we don’t get to play
And I’m so sorry that your little brothers both throwed away
But Chris I won’t go astray, I know you used to people walkin' out
They don’t deserve you in their life, so you can toss 'em out
I’m always here for you, you’re destined for an awesome route
Know what I’m talkin' 'bout?
Until the end I’ll give it my all
I’ll never go away
I’m sorry I can’t see you everyday
But y’all know this, life is hard
Things don’t always come together how we plan
But I will be the best father that I can
Malik and Solomon lately your lives been full of drama
I wanna apologize it didn’t work out with your mama
We wanted to be a family since then alot has died
I just want you to know that I gave it a honest try
I never forget the day she took you and left
The pain has stucked inside of me, it’s like a hook through my chest
And when it hits I feel the emptyness, like I’m dying and I’m lifeless
I’m trying hard to fight this, I’m crying while I write this
Everyday I miss you and it constantly is eating at me
Wonderin' if you’re ok, you’re healthly or you even happy
I wanna help you and I pray I don’t fail
I heard your baby mama knew baby daddy can’t stay out of jail
That’s one of the reasons why when I have you
I hate to send you back
Cause he is not a good example of how men should act
But y’all are smarter than that, so I’mma give it a rest
Just tell your mother I still love her and I wish her the best
And I’ll be watin', lookin' for a two next summer vacation
We can make up, for all the missed birthday celebrations
And I wish we didn’t have to wait
But even though your mama moved you to a different state
Until the end I’ll give it my all
I’ll never go away
I’m sorry I can’t see you everyday
But y’all know this, life is hard
Things don’t always come together how we plan
But I will be the best father that I can
Try to find the balance of the work, family and the music
You see, God gave me this talent therefore I have to use it
When I’m away I miss you more than you could truly know
I wish you were with me everytime I’m at the studio
But I try to provide better life for you and that’s my mission
You gonna be men one day, so I gotta teach you the definition
It’s all about livin' and learnin', every mistake is a lesson
Turn the negatives into positives and appreciate your blessings
Don’t fuck with hoes, find good woman
And become a good soother, and? kailor?
I wish that I could been part of your life sooner
Anytime you need me, whether you’re hurt or ever sad
I will always be here for you, being a father you never had
Cause I love y’all to the death of me, and even beyond that
I know my life haven’t been easy, I’m tryin' to get it on track
I never walk out of your life, no matter where your mom’s at
I’ll always have contact
