Lyrics
There’s times I feel like dyin'
There’s times I feel I’m alive
Sometimes I feel depressed
Sometimes I feel I’m deprived
Tryna keep my head up but lately
I’ve been feelin' like a category 5 tornado hit
It tore right through almost everything
I never wanna love and disintegrated it
Staring down at the pits of Hell
I cry help but all that I can do is fall in it
My whole world’s upside down
Why the fuck is no one comin' for help, I keep callin' it
My life’s a ball of shit
How the fuck did this happen, I put my all in it
But I can’t call it quits
No matter what the weather, I gotta stand tall in it
Shit happens for a reason, but damn it I don’t understand
Right now I’d rather choose a piece of mind over a 100 grand
But I gotta keep it movin'
If I wanna be leavin this place and find somewhere to soothe in
I really need an escape
I gotta escape
Got my back against the wall
And the weight of the world on my shoulders
As I get older, my heart keeps gettin' colder
Every minute of the day is filled with struggle and strain
I should be lovin' this game, instead I’m in trouble and pain
I gotta escape
Sometimes I can’t help but wonder why me
Feelings sorry for myself
Never got me anywhere but that’s how I be
Sometimes when shit ain’t right
All of this drama, it ain’t nice
Even if it kills me I never gave up
So they can’t sayd that the kid ain’t fight
I’ve been strugglin' all of my life
And it’s moldin' me into a stronger man
But sometimes I just need a break
And I wish I could take one on demand
This starting to take us all, every day my body’s achin' mo'
Though I’m back, breakin' label, never slack, chasin' paper
Gotta keep the bills paid so I’m makin' dough
So I’m on the job every day
And I’m feelin' with these disorderly folks
Ever feel like you walking your life away
Just so you can afford to be broke
Got a couple ounce here, got a couple ounce there
Make a little bit on the side
But you can’t flip too much for too long
Cause people talk on the side
And they all here try snitchin', motherfuck-ers can die smithin'
Ear to the streets, yes I listen
Stresses got my eye twitchin'
So I really need to get my fixin', momentarily taken away
I’ma take a few drinks and relax, so I won’t be breakin' today
Sometimes I feel like I’m livin' in a cage
Then when I get out, I’m trapped in a maze
See, back in the days, got slapped in the face
From my mama when I got at a line
And I deserved it
But nowadays life will slap the shit out of you for no purpose
So I gotta learn to pull the positive
Out of the negative every time that shit happens
But I know that when the odds are live
And negative, the semi-automatics clappin'
See when I hit 'em, put the magazine in 'em
Will have the agony, send 'em on to the ground, in the dirt quick
People are wicked so I’m packin' the semi into my jacket
A plenty you can’t imagine who to work with
But I’d really rather have peacefulness or cease disease
If you wanna beef for Chris
I got a lethal gift, that I’m a beast to this
You weak bitch, I’ma throw you in a deep abyss, then plead the 5th
I gotta escape, need fresh air
I gotta try to exhale the stress there
So much pain in my heart that my chest bears
Maybe I should try to have less care
I’ve felt so much pain, but I’ve sustained and I’ve made it through it
And I’ve seen so many get trapped in the negativity
And they don’t blew it
I try to do the best I can
With what I been given and I know I’ve been blessed
But sometimes you need to escape
Cause you gotta get away from the stress