Lyrics
When I think about the past of my life, and all that I did on my own
My own, all the years that I was struggling day and night on the block was my
own
To me I’m an outcast
It’s been a long time coming, I’m still here I’m still breathing
I’ve spent a long time running through each season to season
I’m your prime example if you can’t do it, so give it up
I’m your prime example cause I’ve been through it so listen up
It was deeper than just doing music and drug abusing
It’s about your life and how you use it, the road you chose it
Determines your every step and movement, lord knows I tried, knows I’m defied
It’s hard to run a race that I know I’m behind in, know that I’m grinding
Look at life through my eyes, it ain’t as easy as it looks
Nobody knows the blood and tears that it took
Here’s an expected turn of aggression, that turned to obsession
Turned to depression, through all that you think I learned all my lessons
I ain’t even scratching the surface, I ain’t even half way
It ain’t even about the bitches, or the money I’ve made
In fifty years when I look back on my past
All that I want is for my daughters to be proud of their dad
What else do I have
When I think about the past of my life, and all that I did on my own
My own, all the years that I was struggling day and night on the block was my
own
All that I wanted was a chance to be accepted like you, so tell me if I’m wrong
I just want to do it before it’s over and life’s gone
Tell me you feel, but I never thought I would really be the man
To grow up from nothing to the one sitting before me, see I’m an outcast
Now momma always said it would be worth it, through all the pain and suffering
Through all the rain and hurting, nobody’s perfect
I’m certain that if I left this earth, today they would miss me
But at my funeral how long would the list be before I’m history
An only child with no brothers or sisters, so often me and momma would pack up
The Dots and moving often is exhausting, back and forth in them section 8
apartments
There’s only so much you can take, before it breaks your conscience and changes
to nonsense
Now there’s been times in life where I feel flawless, I’d have to say those
Were the times where my ears would hear whispers, from other angels
Taking actions from other angles, there’s always a gamble
Always a handful, I was raised to show the game what I stand for
Can’t nobody take this moment from you, there’s nowhere to run to
So force them to make the decision to hate you or love you
And that’s the moment that your fate comes to a crossroads
And God knows, I’ve had my share of choices to make with obstacles off-road
With every piece of sand that’s in my hourglass
And with every breathe I take another hour pass
I tell myself it don’t matter, I’ll let them chitter chatter
Live with the laughter, get what I’m after, turn the page in my book
It’s another chapter, I’m after a bigger dream just to capture the bigger things
That have actually came between all the people that disagree
With the typical human being that never makes up excuse’s
But takes the breaks and heartaches the way that he slaves to make two cents
He’s a nuisance but they still follow his shoe prints
Till the day that he chooses to break away from the pack and the past is useless
Give it everything you got and never settle for less again
And they told me while growing up that success is the best revenge
I’m blessed to have walked the broken road, from student to teacher
When it finally evens out and your through it, it’s much sweeter
I would never take it for granted, never out lash but outlast the struggles
That have now passed, label me as an outcast